The girls and I are all dressed in pink today in honor of a brand new mama who just lost her brand new baby, who was only 5 days old.  She passed suddenly in the most peaceful place that she could have been, in her mother’s arms and doing the most peaceful thing she could have been doing, breastfeeding.  Cora, rest in peace you sweet little girl.

When I saw the Tweet from @kristinebrite the other day, my heart jumped into my throat.  I let out an “ohhhh” .  Eric asked me what was wrong and I couldn’t even get the words out.  I couldn’t speak.  All I could do was sit there and grab my heart at the thought of what this brand new mom was going through.  I don’t even know her but we live in such a small world because of the internet, I can’t help but think about her and her loss.

I also felt somewhat ashamed of myself.  I know I shouldn’t have, but I did.  Teagan was born in July and ever since then, I have stressed how difficult the past 5 months have been.  She was an unsettled baby for the first 4 months and I had a hard time with it.

But I wouldn’t give any of it up for the world.

So, for the past few days, little Cora and her mama and daddy have been on my mind.  Their loss has made me take a step back and realize what it would be like if I didn’t have my girls.

After I could get out the words I wanted to say to Eric, I went upstairs and kissed and hugged both of my sleeping girls.  Ever since then, I have been more patient.  More calm.  More understanding.  I’ve complained less and I take in each moment because you only live once and you just never know.

To anyone who has lost a child…my heart goes out to you.