…and that’s nice for a change. I know. I know I have many things to be thankful for. Uncountable things, really. But just like any other human being, I get down in the dumps from time to time. It seems I’ve been down in the dumps more often than not lately. Aside from the many things I’m thankful for, this year hasn’t been tops on my list. I never make New Year’s resolutions but just over a month from now, I think I’ll be making one, that next year will be a better year. Better decisions will be made and there will be more smiles on my face.
I do think that the joy of Christmas really lifts my spirits. I love forgetting (maybe not forgetting but at least setting aside) my troubles for a while. I love focusing on things that make us all happy. I love making new memories with my family. I’m excited about this Christmas for Hailey, her fifth and celebrating it with Teagan, her very first. Mind blowing that last year, she was just a little bean in my tummy and now she’s here, smiling, squawking and lighting up our lives.
Today has started out as a beautiful day and I’ll make sure it ends that way.
not sure if it’s because of having a 2nd child — all the hormones again, plus less sleep/less patience, more work, more attention needed now that you have two kids — but, I FELT THE EXACT SAME WAY for at least SEVERAL months after having my little guy. It was HORRIBLE! I know exactly how you feel — I felt like I didn’t have passion for things like before, but I wasn’t necessarily sad — it may have been a bit of post partum depression, not sure? But, then last week….by little 4 year old said to me, “mommy, you’re so joyful!”. WOW — powerful words and I kind of ‘woke up’ and realized that even though on the inside I felt down and just exhausted, on the outside I was radiating joy……since then, I have seem to be smiling, laughing and just happier. (it also helped to get away for the past week to WI).