Oddly, I’m *WIDE* awake at 4:30 in the morning.  Usually I’m only half awake.  Teagan is nursed and held by her daddy while I’m downstairs pumping so that I do not explode or implode.  Whatever.

I miss writing so, so, so much.  I just don’t have the energy to write anymore.  Not right now, anyway.  I barely have the energy to read.  I just went out and read some of my friend’s blog posts and the entire time, kept saying to myself, “I miss writing.”

All I can say is that I’m breathing.  I’m going through the motions.  Until Teagan settles in, there isn’t much of me to go around.  I’m here, I’m living.  I’m happy about that but I miss relaxing.  There is no relaxing right now.  I just pray to God that I can get back to sleep once I climb the stairs and get into bed.  I’m going to need this random wide awake energy later today when Hailey is talking my ear off and Teagan is screaming for more.

I just miss writing.