Me.  I’m dragging.  The days.  They are dragging too.  Maybe it’s because I haven’t slept longer than one hour increments for the past 6 or 7 nights.  Comfort is a thing of the past…for now.  Maybe I can’t sleep because of the numbness and pain in my swollen hands.  Maybe it’s the kicks and tossing and turning of the baby in my womb all night long.  Maybe it’s the peeing every 20 minutes.  Maybe it’s the aching lower back.  Maybe it’s the snoring that keeps me awake…and my husband.  (Oh the snoring…make it stop!)  Maybe it’s the heartburn.  No, wait.  Let me rephrase that.  It’s definitely the heartburn.

When I do my daily complaining to people about being ready to give birth already, they often tell me that my body is just preparing itself.  That I won’t be sleeping after she’s born, either.

But you know what?  That’s not true.  I have one child already.  I know what it’s like after you have the baby.  There will be sleep.  It will be glorious.  It will be comfortable sleep.  Right now, any small amount of sleep I am getting is not glorious or comfortable.  I’m not rested when I finally get out of bed in the morning.  I’m sore and tired and numb.

And I’m only 33 weeks pregnant.

I was 33 weeks pregnant when I went into labor with Hailey.  I only know what it’s like to “be pregnant” until 35 weeks.  When I imagine what things will be like past 35 weeks this time, it actually scares me a little.  I feel like a bear.  What will I become later this month?  Will I turn green and grow big muscles?  (Cool!)  I’m already a bit “snippy” because my patience has worn thin.

Be happy!  That’s what my sweet little girl tells everyone.  She learned it from Woody on Toy Story.  See?  TV is good for kids.  It’s not that I’m not happy.  Of course not.  It’s just that, I’m not a big fan of pregnancy.  I’m definitely not.  I’m a big fan of bringing that baby into this world.  I’m not worried at all about giving birth.  I’m an even bigger fan of being comfortable and having my body back (ok, maybe not in the current state it’s in but that will change in time).

Does that make me sound very selfish?  Because maybe I am then.