Posted by Amy M on December 28, 2008
I’ve been somewhat miserable and feeling good-for-nothing for the past month but when I think about how far I’ve come since finding out about this pregnancy, I feel good. I feel good knowing that I should start feeling better…soon.
I have good days and bad days. I thought I was having more good days and then two days ago, I just had such a bad day. Tired and nauseous all day long. I feel worse when the sun isn’t out. Like today, the sun is out and I feel pretty good. My sense of smell has definitely hightened recently. I hate going near my kitchen. In fact, I like being out of my house. I have too much time to think about how I feel when I’m at home. Getting out of the house and visiting family the last few days has been really good for me. It feels good to share the pregnancy with our family now, although, I think I complain enough that I’ve scared any of my sisters-in-law out of having babies anytime soon.
Eric has been amazing. He steps up to the plate without me even asking. He even gives me that extra 10-15 minutes of time in bed each morning, so I can just prepare myself for the day. He’s great with Hailey but that’s no different than any other time.
Although, our house is a disaster area. I’m looking forward to putting away the Christmas decorations now. And the Christmas presents. Man, our floors need vacuumed.
I’m taking things a day at a time. I haven’t looked too far ahead just yet. Plenty of time for that. I just want to feel good all of the time again and I want my energy back. This is the hardest part for me. I’m so not afraid of giving birth. That’s a day, if even a day of pain and discomfort. I can handle that. This whole – entire month or so of sickness and being tired is for the birds. You can quote me on that.
Looking forward to getting through the weeks ahead…
Posted by Amy M on December 24, 2008
Oh, yeah! And Happy New Years too!
(See you in July 2009!)
Posted by Amy M on December 15, 2008
She walks around singing Jingle Bells. She sings Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer in her play area. We hear her repeating the lyrics to Frosty the Snowman over the monitor. She hums Christmas carols, she wears a red Santa Claus hat and makes a sleigh out of a basket. Her stuffed deer, reindeer and other assorted animals “pull” her sleigh.
Our little girl eats, breathes and sleeps Christmas. She doesn’t know when it is and she doesn’t truly know what it means but in my opinion, that’s the best part about it. To her, Christmas is magical. It’s decorations and singing and watching Rudolph and Frosty on t.v. It’s looking outside and swearing that she sees Santa flying by, only to discover that it’s generally a formation of geese in the sky.
THIS is what I have been waiting for. THIS is what Christmas is all about to me. Just seeing the excitement on her face when “Frosty” comes to life or when Rudolph’s nose lights up. For me, Christmas is all about how special I can make it for HER. I love indulging in the, “Santa’s watching, you’d better be good” or the “Let’s figure out what kind of cookies we should leave out for Santa”. You can just see the wheels spinning in that pretty little head of hers. The wonderment of a child is what this season is all about.
She’s making Christmas fun for me again.
Posted by Amy M on December 12, 2008
Ok, now I can really see why I didn’t blog a lot when I was newly pregnant with Hailey. I’m more sick with this baby than I was with her! I’m just about 7 weeks or so along and my goodness, I’ve got full-fledge morning/afternoon/evening sickness! This week was bad. In fact, the sickness pretty much started at the end of last week, beginning of this week. I don’t feel like doing anything, especially not sitting on the computer. I can barely handle logging into work right now let alone blogging.
I’d rather be sleeping.
I had a ROTTEN day yesterday. Lots of sleeping and I ended up vomiting last night. Just couldn’t stand it anymore. Today has been MUCH better. I still don’t feel “well” today but I’m not completely nauseated like I’ve been. I tried to eat a lot today. We got out of the house and went to Whole Foods. I picked up some vitamin B6 and some Ginger capsules. I was told those would be helpful for the nausea. I picked up some tea, which is supposedly going to help the nausea as well. However, it is mint flavored and I’m not sure that’s going to work out for me. I bought a lemon too. I heard that sniffing a lemon when your nauseated helps. It will probably just make me vomit.
We’ve “mentioned” to Hailey here and there that there is a baby in my tummy and she’s not too keen on the idea just yet. I told her that she really didn’t need to worry about it right now because the baby wouldn’t be here until next year. I think that satisfied her for the time being. I tell her that is why I’m so tired and sick all of the time, because of the baby. She continues to tell me that “There isn’t a baby in my tummy”. Eh, what can ya do?
Anyway, I wanted to take advantage of posting right now while I was feeling ok. I am pretty sure that won’t last too long. I know I’ll have my “ok” days and my bad days. A week an a half until my doctor appointment. Just want to hear and see the bean’s heartbeat.
Posted by Amy M on December 7, 2008
Oh hormones. How I love thee.
I’m really feeling good for nothing today. I have been feeling that way all week though. I remember these emotions. I remember thinking it was a mistake to get pregnant when I was pregnant with Hailey. The only reason I felt that way was because I was tired and sick. I feel that way again. I feel these overwhelming feelings of worry and fear about having another child. What happened to those feelings of butterflies and chills at the thought of holding another one of my very own babies again? It’s strange how those feelings go away. I know they’ll be back. I know that this will pass.
But still. I’m kind of miserable right now. I really don’t want to do anything. I really don’t want to be bothered. I don’t even want to be on the computer. I just want to recline and sleep. I’m also really feeling down on myself about my weight. I was bound and determined to lose 30 lbs. before I had another baby. I know the weight from this baby is just going to break the scales. I’m a bit self-conscious because I’ve never been this heavy before and I feel horrible about it. I pray that because I want to nurse this baby, that will help me get a head start on my weight loss. I can’t go on feeling this way about myself. Plus, I just don’t feel healthy.
Not much I can do about it now though. Obviously, I need to make sure this baby is healthy while growing inside of me. Actually, I really want vegetables. Last night at Eric’s Christmas party, I was totally chowing down on some raw veggies.
Anyway, that’s my rant for tonight. I’m not feeling well in my mind. My body kind of aches too. My back is killing me today. I slept miserably last night. More strange dreams. I’m sure the tossing and turning has a lot to do with my sore back.
I wish I didn’t have to wait two more weeks for my doctor appointment. Not that I’m worried about the growing bean, I just want to “see” him.
Posted by Amy M on December 5, 2008
The bug is pretty excited about this whole “Christmas” thing. She doesn’t really get when it is or that it’s really just one day. To her, it’s a big ol’ celebration every day!
We put up the tree and our village the other day. She put up the majority of the decorations – around the bottom of the tree. It looks great! I’m proud of her for doing such a good job. This is the look I got when I told her she needed to help fluff the branches:
That’s her, “Mmm-mmm, I don’t think so, mom” look.
But of course when the fluffing was done and the decorations were hung, she was happy as a clam:
Every day, we watch Christmas movies. From Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer, to the Polar Express, she doesn’t miss a beat. She walks around singing made up Christmas carols, mostly because she doesn’t know all of the words to the classics. I love her impromptu songs though. They make my day.
We’ve definitely got the Christmas spirit this year. Looking forward to seeing that little face light up on Christmas morning.
Posted by Amy M on December 5, 2008
Gee, now I remember why I didn’t blog much those first weeks of my pregnancy with Hailey…I have very low energy and I’m starting to get sick. Today really marked the first day of any real nausea. Oh, I know what I’m in for. I think that December and January are going to be loooong months. I don’t feel like doing anything. I’m tired. I have been napping almost every day. I haven’t been feeling all that well because I was getting over a sinus infection, which is FINALLY gone. Thank GOD. Cutting back on my Lexapro has been rough, I think. I’m sure a lot of the wooziness in my head has to do with cutting down my dosage. I am hoping to stop taking it altogether. We’ll see how it goes. My overly anxious personality may not allow it.
So, two more weeks until my first doctor appointment. I must be about 6 weeks now. I’m excited to find out my expected due date (not that it mattered for my first pregnancy). I can’t wait to see that ultrasound. I am going to call next week and make sure they set it up for me. Being high risk, I believe they probably will do one to get the baby’s measurements and check his heartbeat.
I hope to stay on top of blogging. Though, after how I started feeling today, I’m not sure what I’ll be up to the next few weeks. I didn’t even want to go near the computer this afternoon. Anything and everything was making me feel like vomiting. I really didn’t eat much, that is going to have to change. I need to keep a stock of crackers and veggies on hand or else I’m going to feel sick all of the time. I have a tendency to forget to eat.
Off to bed for the night. My dreams have been WACK. That’s a blog post for another day.
Posted by Amy M on December 5, 2008
How could a little blogger like me get so lucky as to have an HOUR to participate in an interview call with Patrick Dempsey? I’m pretty sure that I’m awake right now and I’m pretty sure that it’s actually “happening”. I’m a HUGE Grey’s Anatomy fan, especially when I get to look at Mr. Dempsey in scrubs.
Patrick has had close involvement with a new scent offered by Avon called “Unscripted“. I’m highly anticipating receiving this new, modern fragrence for men. I’m hoping thinking that when Eric tries it he will magically turn into Patrick. Errrr, um, what I MEANT to say was, I hope he likes it. (Insert big cheesey smile here).
Ah, but in all seriousness, I’m just thrilled that I was picked to be a part of this call with Patrick. I’m anxious to hear what he has to say about his new fragrence from Avon. Now, I have to rack my brain thinking of the best, most memorable question that I can ask him regarding his involvement with Unscripted. Looks like I have a busy day of research ahead of me.
The tough life of a blogger, let me tell ya.