I’m thankful that Thanksgiving is over.  It’s hard to keep a secret as big as the one we have when you’re around family.  It’s also hard because drinking wine or beer is a very normal and natural social thing that my husband’s family does.  If you don’t have a drink in your hand, you may as well be pregnant.  So, I took a drink to hold, just so that no one would “suspect” anything.  Not sure if it really worked because I barely drank any of the one glass that I had in front of me all night.

For the past week I’ve been more tired than usual.  I don’t like to say it’s all because of the pregnancy but I know I can attribute some of it.  Especially today.  I really feel out of it.  Napped twice.  Just very low on energy.

I had a dream that I miscarried.  It was a horrible dream.  I am obviously very concerned about that happening.  I keep trying to tell myself to think positive and stay positive.  There WILL be a baby next July.

I am SO THRILLED to be pregnant again.  Beyond words, really.  I’ve told a few of my friends and it’s nice to be able to talk to them about how I’m feeling.  I need to be able to confide in someone.  Of course, I can talk to Eric but he has never been pregnant or given birth, so he really can’t fully understand how I feel.  Although, he has been pretty excited since we found out.

I can feel that “stretching” sensation in my stomach/pelvic area.  I remember that feeling when I was pregnant with Hailey.  My body is getting ready for this new little baby.  I asked Hailey if she wanted a little sister or brother today and she said that she wanted a little sister.  We haven’t “officially” told her the news yet.  We won’t until my doctor’s appt. on the 22nd.  I want her to be there to see the ultrasound and hear/see the baby’s heartbeat.  I know, she won’t have a clue what she’s looking at but in time, it will all come together.

I’m not feeling so hot tonight.  I feel very tense and slightly ill.  Again, could all be my nerves and my anxiety.  I think I started to get nauseous with Hailey right around the eight week mark, so I still have a couple of weeks to go but who knows, each pregnancy is different.