Ok, maybe that’s an exaggeration but I really feel like a waste today. I’ve done absolutely nothing. My toddler has been watching television show after television show while I trudge around the house in my Graco slippers and a scowl on my face. It could be the bitter cold Midwestern weather or it could be getting close to that time of the month. Either way, I’m good for nothin’ today.
So, why do I feel like I’m a horrible mother? Just this one day out of the week, I want to crawl into a hole and hide. Why am I putting so much pressure on myself, just making myself feel worse than I already do?
I’m supposed to be pro actively potty training the toddler but when she gave me the indication that something was about to happen and I said to her, “let’s go over to the potty”, she gave me a stern “no” and I raised my eyebrows in the “oh no you di’n't” fashion and then…nothing. I did nothing. I just let her go in her diaper. I’m so not in the mood to put up a fight today.
I’m also supposed to be job hunting, paying bills, re-listing our house on the market and cleaning out our storage unit. I want to just collapse thinking about all of that stuff. Is it so bad that I just want it all to go away, just for today (and maybe, just maybe tomorrow too)? I find myself fantasizing lately about deserted islands and tropical drinks with no one in sight, ok, maybe just a cabana boy or two fanning me with a huge leaf and feeding me grapes from the vine.
As I sit and look around my cluttered house, I think to myself, do I put on the happy face and down a few cups of coffee or just let myself have this one day to regain some energy for the rest of the week? What would YOU do?
*One of my original Chicago Moms Blog posts
