Every day for the past few weeks, I have been meaning to put up some “Hailey” posts and I just haven’t made time for it or if I had the time, I just didn’t have the energy.

It’s disappointing, to me, that blogging has become something that feels more like a task than a fun past-time. I always feel guilty not posting about this or that. My goal for this blog was to have a pretty comprehensive list of events for Hailey to read when she gets older. It’s fascinating to me that she will have this view of her life when she’s old enough to appreciate it. Who can say that they knew exactly what they said or did on a specific day when they were a toddler? Well, all of the “blogging mom” children will, I suppose. It’s a different day in age and that is the truth.

My blogging break was just that. Actually, that’s not entirely true. It felt good to “ban” myself from the computer at first but then I ended up revamping MumsTheWurd because I had a surge of creative energy. It felt good though. I focused completely on the new site design and I am very proud of what I have accomplished over there. Laura and I feel like we’re going “somewhere” with our site…where that is, we don’t know but we both like the way it feels. It gives us a sense of importance, a sense of making a difference in someone’s life. We’re all about that.

Anyway, I have so many “back-dated” Hailey posts that I will get up soon, for me, but I’m happy to have anyone who stops by to read them along for the ride. Having readers does give me that boost of creativity that I so desire. I’ll make sure to post all of the back-dated links in a summary post so you’re not missing any of our fun adventures, provided I can remember all that has happened in the past few weeks.

I will start off by saying that in real life, Eric and I are struggling. Struggling as parents and struggling financially. Sometimes we don’t know where to turn or who to turn to. We’ve always been independent people and we like to accomplish our goals with very little outside help. Tonight, we sit here not speaking to one another because of parenting and financial-related issues. I’m being very real here. Our baby has become a full-blown toddler and we are experiencing the growing pains right along with her. We’ve had napless days and countless night-wakings. We’ve had several nose-bleeds and half a trip to the ER at midnight last night because we were, well, being parents. Don’t worry, an appointment has been scheduled with an ear, nose, throat doctor.

Other life-related news, I have started a nearly full-time paying job (aside from my most important job, parenting). We have found a wonderful babysitter for Hailey, who we hit it off with instantaneously. She has two little girls of her own and they are making fabulous playmates for Hailey. She’s only been to the babysitter twice, so adjustments are still being made. Luckily, she will only be without one of us for a few hours, several times per week. We’re thrilled with this situation for us and for her.

Our house is still on the market. I think we figured in the back of our minds that this might happen. I know I was wishfully thinking that our house would be on and off the market in a month’s time but I’ve been proven wrong over and over as the months drag on. We feel like we’re living in a state of limbo. Waiting and cleaning…yes, lots of cleaning. I’m a tad bit bummed that all of my holiday decorations are buried deep down in storage but I suppose one year without decorations won’t kill me. At least it will really be another year before Hailey fully understands what the holidays are. That doesn’t mean I’m not trying to come up with the most adorable Halloween costume for her this year! Hopefully I will come up with something soon.

Well, tomorrow is another day and I pray that things start looking up soon. I’m very thankful for my family and that is what gets me through each day. We’re tired of just going through the motions. We just want to live again.

In less than a month, our little ladybug will turn two. I’m just grasping at the fading memories of her as a “baby”. It’s so sad that those have to go away. Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate that she’s healthy and growing like a weed and learning new things every minute but I do long to hold that tiny little bean that once relied completely on me for nurturing and love. She is her own person now and we realize that more and more every day. I’ll do my best to give her the space she needs to grow and learn but quite often, you can see me stealing kisses and hugging her a little longer. She’s my little big girl. =)