I can’t even look at Hailey right now without tearing up. Tears of happiness.

I woke up this morning, not really refreshed at all and started our normal daily routine; bring baby to bed with me when Eric leaves for work and then wake up, get changed (baby, not me), go downstairs, eat, burp, and then the struggle begins again…today was no different – EXCEPT – in the midst of her struggling and discomfort, her eyes met mine and then the biggest, most beautiful smile came across her face and her eyes sparkled. She really smiled at me! I was shocked and ecstatic at the same time. She must have known that I really needed to see that smiling face of hers. That look has now been burned into my mind.

Now, I feel better and stronger. I have to take this a day at a time and keep my frustrations in check. I guess it took that very first smile to realize how much she really needs me…and I need her. I cant wait for Eric to experience the same thing.