Today was a good day. Yesterday was too. I took Hailey out yesterday and today. It is great practice for me. Actually, I cant really call it practice. It is truly exhausting to take a child out, especially in the winter. I had to make sure Hailey’s face was covered and that she had a clean diaper on and that I could feed her wherever I was at. It required constant thinking, something I haven’t had to really do for a while. I feel as if I’m slowly creeping back into the “real world” and out of my fog. I like that. I also REALLY like being home with Hailey and making her my “job”.

We spent the middle part of our day with Sarah and Gillian. I cant believe what a little lady Gillian is becoming. She’s absolutely gorgeous. It was so neat for me to see Gillian look at Hailey, remembering back to when she was born last year. Hard to believe that it’s been a year and I’m sure it’s just as hard for her parents to believe it too! We let Gillian hold Hailey on a chair, it was so sweet and she watched me burping Hailey and on her own, walked over to us and started patting Hailey on her back, as if to burp her. Interestingly enough, Hailey burped for her.

The bug is almost 6 weeks old now and we see changes in her each day. Tonight, she was so alert and loving the attention she was getting from Eric and I. He played guitar for her again tonight and he had her undivided attention. I had to hold back the happy tears. Each day seems to be getting a little easier with her, as she grows and learns.

Time to go to bed, I’m hoping to at least get an hour or so of sleep tonight.