I’m so sick of this heat. I have never felt this way before about the summer heat. I always said, “Bring it on”. I wonder how everyone else feels about it. I have extra heat coming from me these days and it doesn’t help matters.

Eric painted the ceiling in the nursery tonight and we put primer on the walls to cover my purple paint job from a year or two ago. I’m finding myself getting very frustrated with the room situation. We’re still deciding on the colors for the room…narrowed to green and blue…but what shade? One shade of blue is too purple and the other is too dark or too light…yada, yada, yada.

I’m going through that “nesting” phase. I want to get rid of a bunch of things and buy all new stuff. I want to make sure everything is clean and neat. I want the room to be completed. I’m driving myself and eric nuts with it. I had a breakdown today because of it. It almost ruined our entire day. Not just because of the room but because of everything…not having a name for her, worrying about every little ache and pain I have, wondering if she’s alright in there…

All in all, it was a pretty blah day. I hope things look brighter for me when I wake up tomorrow. How selfish of me…we’re healthy and we have a roof over our heads. Shame on me.